Humbled

Just wanting to type out a few things tonight, feeling some deep things. Maybe I'll be able to get them out clearly on here but I doubt it. ;)

I don't know what it is about putting Gideon to bed that makes me feel so strongly. I'm a feeler of a person anyway but almost every night, excluding the ones where I'm dead tired and only thinking about sleep, I am in awe of how amazing of a gift this child is to my life. I truly don't have the words. I just don't. I try to think of them but instead my eyes well up with tears.

To watch my own baby sleep captivates me. I must have forgotten that there are some things in this world that I would easily consider captivating and seeing Gideon sleep is one of them. Sometimes I wonder if God enjoys watching His children sleep for the same reasons.

Tonight my heart aches on how much I love this sweet son of mine.This quote sums up what I'm really trying to say quite nicely...

"Once you become a parent...you automatically carry around, for the rest of your life, an increased likelihood of having your heart broken. And it’s a constant fear that we struggle to put to rest. We can choose to be afraid or we can choose to live. And I choose to live. Because an increased liklihood of having your heart broken also carries with it an increased likelihood of finding yourself the happiest you’ve ever been in life." -Kelle Hampton